3 more infusions!

Almost to the finish line!! Somewhere in the middle of the year-long ritual it became normal; another part of my new existence. But, sitting in the chair, still, can bring about dark thoughts. I do my best to push them aside but I notice a difference in my outlook on those days. For example, after my last infusion I went to CrossFit but it was difficult to not think of where I was an hour earlier. It's the only time CrossFit had not been able to completely distract me. 

As of yesterday I have lost 60 pounds since hearing the word "cancer"; 50 of them since finishing chemo. I thank God for this. It is imperative that I become lean    If I hope to have a long life. I need to be strong should I need to be independent. I pray before , during, and after every element of exercise. 

Right now I'm sitting in Doctors Express Santa Clarita - bladder issues. I haven't been drinking as much water as I should.

It's busy here today. All I can think of is getting an antibiotic and making a CrossFit class. 

Through CrossFit I conquer fear and stabilize my mind; the self-destruction and dark thoughts vaporize - if only I could be there all day every day.