CHEMO SCHMEMO

IT GETS EASIER

 

Yes, I've got the last round of chemo's after 'glow' in the back of my mind but, I also know I made it through. There are doctor's and nurses who are ready for things like what happened to me and they know what to do. I pulled through just fine. This time, I'm drinking water, water, water! I loaded up on anti-nausea (sublingual & on the tongue)from the pharmacy and I'll do what I can to prevent a repeat.

 

Doctor Cohen was surprised my white blood cell count was fine today! After everything I went through and no Neulasta. I can only say that my diet is helping, the Ensure a couple times a day, and exercise with fresh air and laughter with my Natalia. Of course, Joe was so instrumental in getting me through the emergency room ordeal. Ultimately, its what goes on in my head. Do I let myself think about the worst that can happen or do I go through my day knowing that it can go all wrong and forge through, anyway. I forge through anyway. I know the pain is coming. I know the thoughts of quitting are coming. But, I also know I will forge through. I will go to work and do what I do. I will take of my daughter and she, in her way, will take care of me. Everything has its place; church, school, family, etc. But, ultimately its how I process inside my head.

 

"Resilient", was what Dr. Cohen told me I was after I let her know how quickly I recovered after the trip to the emergency room. I told her I went to Universal the day of my CT scan and hiked to the top of a trail last week. She was happy. So, things happen but how do you recover? I take it as it is and accept it, then, forge through it.

 

I watched "Lone Survivor" while in the chair. Talk about forging through. I am so inspired. I could relate to Marcus' code and the code of the Seal. You know there's going to pain but you get through the day and go on to the next. You know there are going to be very dark times but, you get through the day and go on to the next. You believe in what you're doing. I'm going to get the book.

 

Nothing weird with the chemo. I got my bags of chemicals and then I left. I took Natalia to her school to get her package with all her registration info. I ate a tomato wrapped in tortilla and took a nap. Then I went downstairs and took out the trash and flipped the breakers to run the upstairs AC. I made Salmon but didn't feel like eating it. I ate a couple spoonful's of peas. Now I'm back in bed. Work tomorrow and lots of school work to tend to! Last week of this class.

 

My hair is the same. I have muscle aches and a little weakness in my thighs and upper arms. I hope it doesn't get worse than what it is. I can tolerate it this way. We'll see.

 

My skin a atrocious. I'll, definitely, need something done to the skin on my face when this part of chemo is done. I'm searching around, now, for someone local but there is Dr. Nassif and Dr. Dubrow. If only!

 

Well, I have to go back downstairs and take my dexamethasone. Great, I'll be up in the middle of the night.