And the mammagram says....

NORMAL!

But, I already knew that a few days ago when I received the letter in the mail. Dr. Schmit confirmed as much during my first 6 month post-op check up. It was a good visit, overall. Nothing alarming or irregular to contend with. As a result, there was a lighter mood on my part and the doctor's part. I don't know why my mood began to sink, like the Titanic just before the visit was ended. It has continued to sink and hasn't reached bottom, yet. I looked forward to this appointment, nearly, everyday for six months. It wasn't a let-down; great news, I was remembered (I'm pretty sure), and enjoyable banter...so, why? I'll save my diatribe for my journal - I can analyze myself all day.

Things have been stressful with Joe. I don't know why he has to be so passive aggressive and verbally abusive, at times. Its bad enough when I'm not in treatment...but, now-and, I thought things were going along peacefully? I save that for my pillow, too.

God help me, I feel so sad. So  old, alone and worthless.

Me & Dr. Schmit