...HOLDING MY BREATH
I was given the first chemo of my new phase - herceptin - this past Wednesday; it's Saturday and I am feeling fine. With the previous Chemo, I would be suffering by now.
Dr. Cohen told me I was "one tough broad" as we talked after chemo. Our conversation was about my limitations with herceptin (for me, none! ) and follow up care in regards to my kidneys and bladder. She assured me that I would be feeling better in about 6 months and I told her that, although, I had my days I never, really, felt that bad. She smiled and made the comment about me being tough and then went on to give the example of the kidney issue/bleeding and my calm, matter-of-fact demeaner while dealing with it. I work, I hike, ride horses, walk, run up steps, laugh, and live each day to the fullest as I am able. I know how fortunate I am to be doing so well. That's, exactly, the reason why I push myself beyond what my body is telling me. I am so blessed. It may be my imagination, but, it seems the pitted scar on my forehead (from neulasta) is healing. The hair on my head is growing; I have a good stubble going. I am, still, tired, but, not as debilitated.
I bought a bottle of green vegetable drink last week and have been drinking a glass every morning. I follow it with ensure. This seems to be keeping my digestion and intestinal track running smoothly. My sleep is, still, disturbed. I wake up sweating and my heart racing; typical of nightmares but I don't remember the bad dream, if that's what wakes me. My short term memory isn't great, yet. I don't fret so much so long as it's not severe.
Work has been stressful but I put that on myself . My standards for myself are higher than what anyone has put on me. I need to, constantly, remind myself to calm down. Lenny has been an awesome friend and our friendship continues to flourish and surprise me with depth! I am grateful beyond words! Without the beautiful relationships established in the workplace the job would be colorless. God bless my friendships.
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